When I Look In Your Eyes

When I look in your eyes, I see all the pain, all the hatred, and all the agony I never wanted. 

When I look in your eyes, I see the love, the passion, and the fire that got us to that next step. 

When I look in your eyes, I see the lives we could have had, what we could have been, and how happy we could have been.

When I look in your eyes, I see the world at our feet, the lives of our children being great, and the greatness we could have had. 

When I look in your eyes, I see the corpse of your body, I see the white of your skin, I see the death that overcame you.

When I look in your eyes, I see the life we had together, I see all  of our happy moments, I see the smile that told me everything would be okay.

When I look in your eyes, I see the sorrow that says you never finished loving me, I see the fear that says I don't want to die, I see the sickness that overtook your soul, and dragged you down to death.

Now all I see are shut eyelids, a lifeless form, and the body of the one I loved. Please don't take her from me. Let me love her just one more time. I know I can do better.